After the pigtails came out! She looks like a mad scientist!
Friday, July 29, 2005
Ahhhhhhh.....my favorite time of the day! Nap time! It's my two hours of peace and quite! Normally I would be working on school, but I decided to play hooky today and blog. It's amazing how much I crave silence during the week. You would probably understand if you spent about five minutes here while all the kiddos were up. They can be pretty loud and unfortunately that just comes with the territory. Hold on.....I have to go tell one little boy that he needs to be quite. I don't care if they sleep, but they do have to lay still and be quite. Ms. Michelle needs a break! I find that watching children is more exhausting than my previous job, but at least I get to be at home with Kayleigh. Some days, though, my patience runs thin and I find myself constantly having to apologize for my irritable mood.
Those days have been coming more frequently and yesterday I asked myself why. Probably should have done that months ago, but who has the time to think...not me! Anyways! I don't know if this is one of those phases in life people talk about, but it seems I don't spend time in the Word more than once every two weeks. And it's not that there isn't time. I have time, but usually I fill it with school or housework...things that I think I can't put off. Then there's getting over the idea that I need to spend like an hour studying the Word. I guess I just don't feel like I've done anything if I only read for 15 minutes. So, I pretty much go through my weeks thinking, "I need to spend more time in the Word" or "Gosh, it's been like two weeks since I even prayed"....and then of course I see God as though He's the friend I haven't called in a month and now I feel sheepish about calling cause then I would have to explain why I haven't called and I really don't have a good excuse. (is that a run-on? oh well, that's how I feel). Maybe this is legalism...thinking I need to spend a certain amount of time in the Word and in prayer and then feeling guilty if I don't. But then how am I supposed to develop a relationship with God if I don't spend enough time with Him to know Him? Grrrrrrrrrrrr! I am so frustrated with myself and I think that spills out into how I am with everyone around me.
Enough on that subject!!! Kayleigh has a blast at her birthday party! She loved opening presents and eating her cake. I am so glad she is in my life! I love her whole-face smile and goofy antics. Yesterday I did pigtails in her hair...she looked so cute! I'll post some pics from her birthday and yesterday!
Well spell checker is taking forever, so please forgive any spelling errors!
Those days have been coming more frequently and yesterday I asked myself why. Probably should have done that months ago, but who has the time to think...not me! Anyways! I don't know if this is one of those phases in life people talk about, but it seems I don't spend time in the Word more than once every two weeks. And it's not that there isn't time. I have time, but usually I fill it with school or housework...things that I think I can't put off. Then there's getting over the idea that I need to spend like an hour studying the Word. I guess I just don't feel like I've done anything if I only read for 15 minutes. So, I pretty much go through my weeks thinking, "I need to spend more time in the Word" or "Gosh, it's been like two weeks since I even prayed"....and then of course I see God as though He's the friend I haven't called in a month and now I feel sheepish about calling cause then I would have to explain why I haven't called and I really don't have a good excuse. (is that a run-on? oh well, that's how I feel). Maybe this is legalism...thinking I need to spend a certain amount of time in the Word and in prayer and then feeling guilty if I don't. But then how am I supposed to develop a relationship with God if I don't spend enough time with Him to know Him? Grrrrrrrrrrrr! I am so frustrated with myself and I think that spills out into how I am with everyone around me.
Enough on that subject!!! Kayleigh has a blast at her birthday party! She loved opening presents and eating her cake. I am so glad she is in my life! I love her whole-face smile and goofy antics. Yesterday I did pigtails in her hair...she looked so cute! I'll post some pics from her birthday and yesterday!
Well spell checker is taking forever, so please forgive any spelling errors!
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