Today is a movie day....the kids just seem to be in a bad mood, so I'm giving them some rest time while they watch Jonah. Maybe I'm the one in a bad mood and that just makes the kids seem worse; either way, I'm giving myself a break right now.

Today I feel tired. Just plain tired. Tired of being a mom, of being a wife, of watching other people's children, of going to school, of housework ( not that I do a whole lot, Justin helps me bunches in this department). I'm not depressed, it's probably just hormonal. What I really want is a vacation by myself....is that a bad thing? Just a couple days to just be by myself...to read a good book, work on some crochet projects, focus on Christ without time constraints or interruptions. I still haven't figured out how to juggle the whole being a wife, mother and pursuer of Christ dynamic. It seems earthly things fill up my time leaving no room for the spiritual. Of course this is probably why I feel tired...no spiritual food, or at least very little of it.

Last night I took a step to put more spiritual food into my soul. I went to a Bible study for the first time in three years. Justin and I do attend a minichurch, but they are all in the same boat we are...too much to do, with too little time to do it in...so we do not usually do indepth Bible studies, which is totally fine. This Bible Study is a women's group and we are going through James! I'm the youngest by about 10-15 years; in fact, I'm the age of most of the other women's children. I think my job this Spring will be just to sit back and take in all the wisdom I can from these women. I am so excited!

Well, I need to pay attention to my very busy, into everything, opening doors already son!